I am so freaking aggravated with people at the moment. Flakey people who can't make up their freakin minds, people who are noncommittal and then the other random people who annoyingly message me on myspace in a stalker like fashion because they know I am now single. Another thing that annoys me is when people call me, sit on the phone quietly, the only things they say are complaints about this and that and just really unattractive things like how they are in debt or how they have been getting trashed every single day. Nice. I don't care!
I don't. I really really don't.
Then the messages on myspace, getting 30 messages a day from one person on myspace is just fucking annoying. It's not special, it's not cute, it's deeply disturbing and fucking unattractive. No I will never date you, I don't even want to hang out with you! Ever. End of story.
I don't know, I'm aware that I sound increasingly hateful, mean and downright rude, but really I'm not. I can care less. I don't hate, I don't even think about them aside from annoying messages/phone calls/voicemails/what have you.
I don't understand it. Is it me growing into a better person or a less tolerant/worse person? Is everyone around me becoming lame or is it me? I'm pretty sure it's not me. Everyone I've been really close to in the past few years have slowly faded out of my life and I have to admit, I don't miss any of them. Not one. Sure, I miss the having lots of friends and places to go and things to do, but how often then not were those places, things and people actually fun? Um, hardly ever.
Maybe it's because I've just gotten out of a fucked up relationship, all my negative thoughts and emotions are amplified, but I don't care. I need to rant/vent. I'm less tolerant of this irresponsibility that people have about their own actions/choices. Yes, including me, which is why I'm going to school, getting a job and making the choice to live in Wisconsin and going through the long, annoying, inconvenient loveliness of a reckless relationship.
I did it, why can't everyone else? Why can't everyone take a good long look at themselves. I think people are just scared. I know I was, so I guess I shouldn't judge or be mad at people for it. Whatev, it's still super annoying.
Not like I'm some perfect person.
Anyways, I don't know what I am talking about and I am aware that the last few entires have been super negative, oh well.
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annoyed